Total: 425 cals.

11-10-12

Total: 368 cals.

11-11-12

Total: 382 cals.

11-8-12

Total: 370 cals.

11-9-12

Total:342 cals.

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I know I can do better than this, I fucking know it.

Total- 470 calories.

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Starting to eat less then 500 cals. again. 

Haven’t really been putting my intakes up, so guess I’ll start again today.

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Total Intake: 390

Intake: 950

-564

Total: 386

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I disgust myself. A lot.

Intake- 356

-61

Total: 295

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ugggh.

Intake- 710

-40

Total- 670.

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i disgust myself.

intake-450

-24

426 cals.

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Intake-890

-200

total-690

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Eww. Just fucking eww.

7-12-12

total- 530 cals.

7-13-12

total - 391 cals

7-14-12

total- 576 cals

7-15-12

total- 562 cals

7-16-12

total- 668 cals

7-17-12

total- 780 cals

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must be thin. must be thin. must be thin. must be thin. must be thin.

Intake: 354

-61

Total: 284

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Pretty good for not exercising as much as I should. Ha, but still. Too fat.

But, setting my ed aside, my life has basically turned to shit.

• Grandma’s on her death bed.
• I’m still getting called out on my weight.
• Turns out my friends are about as depressed as me.

The list could go on, but all I honestly thought of these past couple days was starting “ it ” again. I want to, so bad. It’s taking every ounce of will power not to. I came out about it with my best friend who actually proved to me we were so alike saying she was planning on it. Only, I promised I wouldn’t do it again. But I have to. It’s either cut or suicide the way I look at it.

Sorry I didn’t post yesterday. I kind a binged and I can assure you it was disgusting.

Intake- 166

-404

Total= -238

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Totally made up for yesterday.