Total: 425 cals.
Total: 368 cals.
Total: 382 cals.
Total: 370 cals.
I know I can do better than this, I fucking know it.
Total- 470 calories.
Starting to eat less then 500 cals. again.
Haven’t really been putting my intakes up, so guess I’ll start again today.
Total Intake: 390
I disgust myself. A lot.
i disgust myself.
Eww. Just fucking eww.
total- 530 cals.
total - 391 cals
total- 576 cals
total- 562 cals
total- 668 cals
total- 780 cals
must be thin. must be thin. must be thin. must be thin. must be thin.
Pretty good for not exercising as much as I should. Ha, but still. Too fat.
But, setting my ed aside, my life has basically turned to shit.
- Grandma’s on her death bed.
- I’m still getting called out on my weight.
- Turns out my friends are about as depressed as me.
The list could go on, but all I honestly thought of these past couple days was starting “ it ” again. I want to, so bad. It’s taking every ounce of will power not to. I came out about it with my best friend who actually proved to me we were so alike saying she was planning on it. Only, I promised I wouldn’t do it again. But I have to. It’s either cut or suicide the way I look at it.
Sorry I didn’t post yesterday. I kind a binged and I can assure you it was disgusting.
Totally made up for yesterday.