not one person can begin to understand how paranoid i actually am. i seriously worry about everything. it’s the sole cause for being the way i am and, i just don’t know how to keep going on. i cant keep living like this.

every night, before i go to bed i have been telling myself that maybe tomorrow will be the day that everything gets better. i’ve done this for years and so far, nothing has gotten better. actually, everything has gotten worse. sooner or later i’m just gonna give up.