i literally cannot go a long period of time without fucking falling back into old habits. i havent even thought of cutting for months.
but i guess when four separate people basically call you fat in the same fucking day, it gets to you. it’s like, do you think i want to be this way? i dont fucking choose my body weight. i do my best to lose weight. i have fucking done everything; skipped meals only taking in 300 calories, ate healthy and balanced meals, ive exercised like crazy. i’ve lost over 30 fucking pounds. but no one knows that. no. they just see some fat worthless piece of shit apparently. i am so tired of hearing this shit. i know im fat. no one knows it better than i do. i dont need my ‘friends’ or ‘family’ throwing it in my face.
i couldnt handle it anymore and after a good 5 months, i relapsed.